我错了吗？

I will use Mandarin to write this post because one of my reader request me to write some post with Mandarin. And sorry for stop posting new post^^

这个年份，陆陆续续发生了一些事情，这些事情也一直让我成长。。。

但是有些东西我一直搞不明白。。。

很多事情我一直都觉得自己没做错，但是到最后一些事情发生后让我对自己的作风开始耿耿于怀。。

很多时候，我做的东西都不能让人理解，而且往往我不会表示出自己做一件事情的真真目的，就算是自己人。。。 而我这个坏习惯害了我自己，我为了掩饰我偷偷做的好事情说了一个又一个的谎言，好的事情到最后变到坏的事情。。。 比如，我关心一个人，我为他做的事情我不知道怎么让他知道，也不会让她知道，往往到最后这些都变成了误会，同时变成了坏人。。。

这一段时间我想了又想， 自己错了吗？ 我只是不会表达我自己的心意。。。

很多人都认为我是很厉害沟通的人，其实真真的我往往都是不会沟通的那一个。。。

我真的想了很多很久。。。我真的后悔了，因为我的坏习惯，我错失了很多很多。。。

我真的不知道自己在写什么，我一直以来以为自己的谎言能保护自己爱的人。。但是我到最后才发现我们不能说谎。。。因为纸保不住火

在这里我想告诉大家我所学到的道理

1.珍惜眼前，因为她/他也许有一天会离开你

2.不能说谎，除非你有能力承担后果

3.不能放弃，因为机会一直都在只要你肯努力

4.每天反思，因为我们要发现自己的错误

5.能忍则忍，因为退一步海阔天空

6.面带笑容，但是请用真心对待每一个人

7.不许后悔，这是最重要的因为记得不要做任何让你自己后悔的事情

Read it you will know what it is about

I hope some of you know, I am not able to accept anyone right now, I am really to use such rude word to reject you...  At the same time, I guess the people who concern about me will have some reading on my blog and I hope you will read this post until the end.

I guess if you guys concern about me, you will know what stage and what kind of situation I met now and I know you all care for me. Yes, I did replied you all but it is not mean that I got feeling, you all just caring me , not love..... I really cant do anything but reject... If you read my previous post, I told you all LOVE is PERMANENT.... YES, PERMENANT..... I cant take you guys as a replacement.. I know you will say you dont mind to become the replacement, but really sorry, I dont want any people around me met the most painful thing in this word, LOVE PAIN..... And I am sure you are not love me, just LIKE....

The only thing I can say to the people who trying to do anything to me

" If you want to LOVE me, You need to hunt me in my own DARKNESS SIDE; Remeber you will get HURT before you found me,  you still need to OPEN the chain that locked my hear even you FOUND me, BUT even you success did all this mission, Remember, the scar made by the chain will never LOST , it is PERMANENT'

A story of a plate

I guess most of us read this story before....

Now, take a plate on your hand and drop it.....

What will happen??? Can you fixed it after you break it? No you never, even you fixed, it still wont become 100%same with the original form.

As you can see this plate is broken, how you going to fixed it to original form?

Yes, this story tell us that not to hurt people because there will be a permenant scar that will not lost forever once it is hurted.




But why? I mean did anyone think before the story behind this story?
Who drop the plate? Why he wants to drop the plate?

First, we must know how to plate made, the plate origin form is sand( I guess) so who made a plate? Who made a tiny sand to become a plate??? Yes, there will be a person who made it, but why the people want to break it??? Do you think he purposely? He wants to do so?...... or there are some REASON?......... You imagine when you drop a plate, what will happen? The plate will break and the broken pieces of the plate might hurts you, who wish to hurt themself??? No one, there are some reason people want to do so or accidently.

So it is same with our life, we might accidently hurt others, and did we wish to do??  WE must know something, sometimes we might become the victim( the person who get hurts which like the paltes) but we might not know there are some hidden story of why the person hurt you. Yes, it might have some people that purposely want to hurt you but NOT EVERYONE, especially the person who CARE,LOVE you....

My friends, think twice before you hurt people, think twice before people hurt you, most of the time, there are some reasons on certain thing happened.....


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LOVE change to HATE?

                                                                                         

 How many people in a relationship before? What is puppy love? What is true love?  

Everyone will have different kind of feeling and all of us wish to have a permanent love in our life.... But are you READY for it?

From what I heard so far, i heard some of my friends share their story about their relationship. I am the full observers for some relationship of my friends which I look at them since they are friend , and become couple and have conflict and break up.....

Most of the people choose to hate their EX when they break up. I also dont know whether it is correct decision or wrong decision because I am not the one who faced what they had faced..

But, my viewpoint is different since I have a really true love relationship, and i am sure it is a true love relationship. 100% true love. 

Yes, I did doubt myself too, whether should I hate her? But I know I cant, some of the people say i am idiot, but i dont think so because I know i love her... What is love? I not sure, and I dont know how to describe it... but I know, love is permanent, no matter what happen love is permanent, you will still love the person you love if you love him/her before....

as the above photo showed,
"you will never stop loving someone, it is either you never did or you always will"

I strongly agree because I cant hate her even i tried to force myself to........ So this is my definition of love.... Love is permanent

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      Let go back to the recent thing that just happen to me... This is the story that about my first true love relationship..... Actually this is the topic I do not wish to talk the most...

     Let go straight to the broken stage of this relationship..... Yup, broken stage, she broke up with me because I am not a good boy for her.... The most berserk stage is on the first week, my mind was crazy...... I even not sure whether what am I thinking that week, my mind full of question marks..... How do I pass through all those day?? My answer is Sleep+sleep+sleep.... I will sleep and sleep and sleep... I had no choice because this is the only way to let me not to think anything..... But it is not a easy thing to avoid.... Do you know? When you love a person... the person will be everywhere, any time... even in your dreams...... I dream she came back to me.... I dreamed she left me and I shout her name.... That was crazy weeks....I also dont know how to describe that week because it was the most horrible week i ever have..... I dont know who to talk to, I dont know what to do... At the end, I cried badly and I messaged with my mom..... My mom was surprised because I never talk to her about my personal life before. Before this, I will try to be tough even when I met challenges or any hardships because I dont wish my parents will worry about me. I prefer to act as a rebel child in front my parents because i do not know how to show my caring to the person i care.

    I remember my parents bring me to Cameron Highland that following week. My parents do not know what happen but they know something happen on me because I am silent for the whole trip, I eat a little.... I cant smile or laught, i dont talk....... Before this, I will at least wear a MASK in front of my parents even if i am sad but I dont know why I cant even wear a fucking mask on my face that following weeks, i guess is month.... I cried alot of times in the toilet while i bath because i dont want my parents know about it.... Is weird, because i felt she is around when I went to Cameron highland because I remembered before 2~1 weeks she broke up with me, she went to Cameron Highland too..... Hahaha, actually I though all this illusion will only happen in drama but now i understand the feeling..... My parents know I am acting tough and they sent message to comfort me too which caused me cried again.... I feel guilty, really guilty because I make them worried. 

   After that weeks, I forced myself to do things, try to make myself busy in order to not to think about her, but it does not work, I will remember every single thing about her no matter what I do, when I eat, when i watch television, when I do assignment, I will also remember her if i saw any little that can related to me and her..... really little thing..... haiz.... A lot of my friends asked me what happen on me because they read through my face, i dont know why... Maybe the main reason is because i never have a unhappy face in front of them before, i tried to smile at them talk as usual but they told me i am different.Until now, at least i can wear a mask on my face already......

   From the day she broke up with me, I met alot of things, but I choose to be silent in order to avoid misunderstanding. Some people scold me, some people hate me, some people look down me, some people fuck me, some people comfort me , some people guess the story themself because I didt tell them anything when they asked, but I will tell all of you now, the reason is because I not good enough..... 

   My friends asked me to leave the world.... Yes I can leave, but i am not willing to...... I am not acting as a hero or infatuation but there are some reasons you guys will never what  a Love is. The reason I highlight the a is because one of the reader told me that i should not use a infront of love. BUt, why I use? because A love mean 1 love..... Love=1 likes=infinity as i mentioned before.... If you truly love a person, it will inside your heart forever, if you take he/she as an enemy after u break up, it is not love..... I do not hate her, I wish i can protect her from far..... just because a simple term... I love her.....

Guys..... Appreciate your partner~ I wish you guys have a good relationship^^
(Please dont ask me further question about this) Thanks.... I will not talk about this anymore



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Prostitute

     
     Tell me, what is your perception toward prostitute? Mostly, people will have some prejudgement for the people who work as prostitute. But for me, I will not think so. Why? I do not think so but it is not mean that I agree for what they do. The MOST important thing we must know in our life is, DO NOT JUDGE OTHERS IF WE NEVER PASS THROUGH WHAT THEY HAD PASSED THROUGH. Before you complain or judge a prostitute, did you ever think why you judge them as a bad person? Why? Let me give you several answers, the main factor people will judge something before they study it is based on:

1. Friend influence
They only listen to what he/her friends said to them but they never really think about it
2.Society influence
Once most of the people disagree for a certain things, the thing will become a wrong action, once most of the people agree for a certain things, the thing will become right action EVEN IT IS A WRONG ACTION.

   Prostitute is a job too, they are human too. They have the right to receive respect from anyone . They are just doing a thing that not much people willing to do. Yes, they might have sex with others, but why having sex is a sin? Human did have desire, different people have different kind of though, feeling, attitude, we should not expect everyone actions. attitude to be same with us. Maybe this is one of his/her hobby? Everyone does their own hobby. Some people might love to smoke, some people might love to play games, some people might love to study........ Why cant they love to sex? I know it sounds wrong but why cant? They do what they like, at least they work what they like. Sometimes, I feel we human is living inside a invisible cage. We live in a cage that we must do what we had learnt. We did not been force to do what we had learn, but we had been shaped to do what we had learnt. At the beginning, we might have our own dream, own though, but how many people had become what other's expect them to become?? 

  We should think before we make any judgement on everything, we must have out own thought. Why we need to expel our own though and follow other's though?? Why? Is their though is the best?? Is their though is correct? If correct, why it is correct? Did you ever think that before???? 

  In this post, i take prostitute as an example.... Did you spend your money and time on smoke? How many people dislike the smoker smokes? Did you spend your money in your game? How many think that the people who spend money in game is idiot? Did you spend money for your shirt? How many people think that the people who spend money on shirt is a waste??? What I am trying to bring out in this post is, every people have different habit and attitude. A gamer might spend their money on game but not shirt, a fashion guy might spend their money on shirt but not game, a smoker might spend their money on smoke but not game. It is depends on who you are.

BE CONFIDENT TO BE WHO YOU ARE, DONT CHANGE WHO YOU ARE BECOME WHAT THEY WANT

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"My Words for all of the couples and the single"

             Love is a mystery thing. Who can define a love? A person who never fall in love have no right to define it because you will never know the true meaning of Love. Mostly, we will went through "like" before we going to "love", but who knows how to differentiate likes and love? Nowadays, a lot of people in relationship, but did they really love each other??? Many people will in  relationship because they feel the "someone" might able to help him/her at that moment, or maybe in the correct timing he/her had came out in front of he/her at the moment when he/her needs someone to talk. I guess for the people who have in true love relationship before will pass through several stages of love
1. sweet stage
This is the first stage of love which both of the parties might very active to meet each other, most of the time, they will not angry whatever their partner did. They will try to show their best part before they in a relationship.

2.Fighting Stage
This is the second stage of love which both of the parties might have conflicts with each other because of ideas not same, the bad habit shows since time prove everything. But, they still will take care of each other.

3.Ice stage
This is the third stage of love which both parties start to feel anything of their partner did is annoying and disturbing which like how teenagers nowadays treats their parents. They started to not appreciate each other because they take the caring as a MUST because they already use to it the caring or loving given by their partner

      After the third stages, they will become complicated stage because it will decide whether the relationship continue or end......

    My friends, I am not a successful person in relationship.... But, my friends, please appreciate what you have now, if you are in a relationship, appreciate him/her because you will regret someday ..... Love is miracle, if you love a person, you will willing to do anything for him/her but make sure you show your changing obviously. Many of my friends asked me one question

" should I break with my bf? Should I break with my gf?"

    The first question I will ask them back is, why? Some of them said that because their friends asked him/her to do so. Some of them said that they found a better one. Some of them said they feel they have no feeling to each other already. Some of them say distance problem....   Hey my friends, if you really love the person, you will never want to break up with him/her, appreciate him/her. Yes, you might be found a better one, but how you can make sure he is better??? You may start to feel no feeling, but did ever remember what you all passed through together??? If you say distance, so how if next time he/she needs to work oversea after you married?    Love can be easy and it depends how you look at it. Please ready before you in a relationship, dont in a relationship because you want to in relationship. Please give each other trust when you are in a relationship. We must know, every steps he/she did have their own reasons, why dont you give them chance to change? Why dont you give them chance to explain? Share your problems to your partner because it will improve the relationship between you and her or you and him....

      In the conclusion, for my opinion,  love is forever, like is temporally. I will not agree the people who said they have totally forget their EX , for me,  I love ONCE.... I like alots..... But just once... i love.... and I didt do well and we break up....... I dont think she will totally lost in my heart but at least there is a space for her forever.... Even we break up, i still hope she will be fine...This is how I define love, love is forever no matter what happens.... I dont wish any of my friends will hurt because of love any more so please appreciate your partner now, grab his/her hand now and give him/her a hug... Love can be simple^^ good luck my friend....

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